First things first I have been vegan for almost five months now and I adore this lifestyle. For someone who was very against veggies, I am now a complete veggie convert.

Last year I went through a significant body change, I went from weighing 240, losing 70 pounds to 170 pounds (I'm 5'11). I have always had body issues and I lost the weight through mainly diet, cutting out alot of junk foods. However I was in a bad relationship at the time and my ex caused alot more insecurity in my weight and my looks. I wasn't eating regular meals and along with going on the South Beach diet I went down to 145 at my lowest.

I'm now at about 160, eating a strict vegan diet with no vegan junk food, mainly eating veggies, fruits, lentils about once a day and popcorn. I still have major issues with my body and I break down and freak out often, even though I'm literally eating only fruits and vegetables and occasionally plain air-popped popcorn. It's caused a strain in my relationship with my boyfriend, who is completely supportive of my veganism, because he sees the issue I have with my body and my problems with food.

I've read alot about people changing their food issues with a vegan diet, and I was hoping it would help me, but I continue to struggle with days of not eating, or guilt causing me to throw up. I hate that I'm like this and I just don't know what to do.

Has anyone gone through this themselves who could help with advice?

Hi Trista,

Sorry to hear you are so unhappy :(  I struggled with an eating disorder and Alicia's book really brought to light that it's about rebuilding a relationship with food.  With Alicia's book I also read this one. I highly recommend you give it a try.

http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0312321236?ie=UTF8&tag=evelyntrcom-20&linkCode=as2&camp=1789&creative=9325&creativeASIN=0312321236

It is NOT a diet book at all.  It tries to help you eliminate those "food police" in your mind that tells you what you can and can't eat.  My mom also read it at the same time and it really helped for me to talk to her about it.  So maybe your bf can read it too.  

I am so sorry to hear that your suffering, my heart truely wishes you the best. Alicias book really is so amazing. read it front to back with an open mind, and in the end, listen to your body. My exerpt for you is to eat alittle less fruit, replace with veggies(I say the sweet ones like the allium family: steamed leeks, onions, ect.) And from personal experience, lentils or hearty dishes are best smack dab at lunch, mid-day. have a satisying breakfast, hearty lunch and light dinner. Avoid too much snacking, but when you do, just savor and enjoy every second of it, you might find next time your tempted it will be easier to say no. =) If you maintain a routine than your body will learn whats coming and be less hasteful to hold on the what your useing and more willing ot let go.

Try yoga, or excersize of any sort, especially while watching tv, that alway helps.

:) I really really hope your find peace, and slip into the body you want. Much care from a stranger. =) Hang in there!

check out the blog oh she glows! google it; trust me. written very honestly by a woman who struggled with disordered eating for years, she is now recovered and vegan. it's all about having a healthy relationship with food. it helped me, i struggled with anorexia (and when my body couldn't take it any more, binge eating). seriously, google oh she glows and read the "about" page (top left hand corner).

I'm a little late in the game as far as responding to this thread, but I just wanted to echo the praise for Oh She Glows.  Angela's blog is a great resource, and she's super sweet.  We've exchanged a few emails, and I cannot say enough nice things about her.